The beginning..

There is a reason of our creation. But are we suppose to understand the reason? Does the reason comes with more pleasures or pain? Or can we choose?

I struggled most of the time to understand why things happen the way they happened. And if it is wrong, I tried so hard to make it right which I sometimes I think I am nuts...trying to be a saint perhaps. I've had friends telling me to learn to master the attitude of 'Don't bother'. I am beginning to think that I may be a saint in my past life but was never beatified. So maybe in this life I am on the run for that Sainthood status....wow! perhaps not....