When

When in your life do you consider is the turning point of your life? When you fall and got hurt? When you achieve something extra ordinary? When you lose someone you love? And does the turning point takes the best out of you or the worst? Is the turning point our own decision or force upon us?
A childhood experience which a child should not have gone through is the 1st turning point of my life. I was force to turn my life around when I hardly knew how. I know right now, millions of children are probably going through the same thing as I had 25 years ago.
2nd turning was when I had my twin sons. It was something I had wished for when I was a teenager and my wish came through. Though my younger twin did not survive, my eldest and only son now is a handsome 15 year old. Not long after having my twin sons, I had another turning point. Now, I am wishing I had not taken the turn. If I had not taken the turn, I probably do not have to make my 4th turning point now. When can we not make any turning point? How many turning points in life a person must encounter to have achieve what they want?

Hanoi. Oh Hanoi

Counted my blessings when I was in Hanoi last month. From what I see, everyone in Hanoi seemed to be just trying to survive each day slowly. You can't help but to feel that the poor dominates the population. I am sharing a short video clip to give an idea that most of the poor commute with motorbike. Hence the massive motorbike riders, average 3 person in a bike. Either with helmet or without. I was experiencing the evening life of the city and everyone is preparing for the 1000 years anniversary of Hanoi city.

World Cup Fever

An event where the whole world is tune in with every matches shown live or repeat on TV. Whether their country is playing or not, the event certainly have an impact on those who loves football, on the economy for the country that is hosting the event and on those represent their country.

I learned to understand, love and watch the sport because of my husband. And I am a supporter to a few teams which I am happy enough if either one wins. May the best team wins

I wish they never grow up

My children. My life. My friends at home when their father is away for work. My companion when I watch the TV. They are my maid when I am tired at home. They entertain me on the phone when I am away at work. They make my blood pressure shoot up by calling me when they need to complain about each other.

Soon, they will be all grown up. Having their own life. Making decisions for themselves.

I dread the day they will leave home. When there will be no complains to hear. No maid to help around at home. I wish they will never grow up.

Love

Love. When you give, you hope to receive it in return. To some, they give it unconditionally. Someone like Mother Teresa.For some, they expect the receiver to return equal amount of love, or more than what they have given.
My understanding of love - Part 1 : Man brings woman to the beach stall. They share a simple dinner, nasi lemak with teh tarik ping. Man talks about his life, his past, his families. Woman listens and laugh at the humors man tells. Then it drizzle, but it was okay. Man pays the bill and take woman to sit by the beach, under a tall christmas tree. Man suddenly becomes quiet. Woman ask why. He takes her hand, put it close to his chest and ask woman if she feels his heart beat. Woman ask why man's heart beat is fast. Man says he is nervous. Woman ask why and man says he is falling in love with woman.
Part 2: Man is away for work. Woman misses man very much. Man call woman on woman's house. Woman answers phone. Man ask how woman is. Woman says she is okay but misses man very much. Then man say "you look very good in red shirt". Woman screams and ask man where he is. Man says ' look out your window'. Man comes home to give woman surprise. Man says I LOVE YOU

To what extend would an individual go to give and experience love, is one part that would always create chaos in their live. Majority wants the love that they give is given back equally, if not more. But majority also fail to appreciate the love they receive and take it for granted. To those reading this blog of mine, never take love for granted. It will cause you heart breaks. If you love a person, love that person faithfully, even if that person fails to see it. I know I am.

Me and The Bandits

Running the full marathon in the Borneo International Marathon last 2nd May 2010 was not part of my goal this year. I had set out to just do half marathon instead. I could not picture myself completing the run and neither was I prepared to be in agony with muscle ache after the run. But I then challenged myself that I can do it and pretty much ready for it. Besides, it is the 3rd time I joined and I know I can do it. But not without some help from some Bandits.
These Bandits are more than Bandits. They are my running mates. They are my running drugs, my school mates mostly. But above all, they are my wonderful and beautiful friends. We pretty much motivated each other.
So I did it. I completed my 1st full marathon. We all did it.
The training - few months of waking up damn early. The race preparation - loads of nerve wrecking moments. The race - well completed. The friendship - PRICELESS!
My Running Bandits - WE ROCK!

Silence is Golden

Was in silence for a while. Have not been pouring out what I went through since my last post. I am trying to evaluate what I have gone through in life, what I am going through now and how I will prepare myself for the days to come.
At times I can take all the blows and brush it aside by thinking positively. But I began to realized that I am only human and it is alright to have an outburst. It is alright to cry. It is alright to feel bad. Because by crying, by releasing all the anger then one is able to feel better about themselves and move on.
I once know a person whom I regard as my best friend. My confidant. That person gave back the same quality. As we go through the years, that person chose to find some other best friends in order to fill the gap I could not fill whenever I was not around or occupied with other things. But I never said I could not fill. I just had to be away in order to appreciate that person more. That person did not understand....but I have to move on. I move on for the sake of the friendship, love and care I have for that person. And hope that person knows I will always be around.
It is every person's wish that they are given a chance and make the best out of it. I have that chance and I am making the best out of it. If only that person sees the same....life would be more wonderful and blessed!